Its Official Now

Yes, now I can tell the word that I am pregnant. I am expecting a baby boy in first week of October. Now I think I won’t be needing the diet pills.
We didn’t want to disclose it to anybody till it was confirmed whether it is a boy or a girl. We already have a daughter and wanted to have a son to complete the family. I have been under a lot of stress lately. My husband and I decided that if it turned out to be a girl, then it was better to abort the baby. Yes it is insensitive of me to talk about killing my unborn baby in the womb. But the Indian mind set and particularly the Jats’ hasn’t changed much with regards to daughters. They are still thought of as burden. I am a second child and a second daughter, now I can understand what my mother must have went through when I was born. Anyways, now I won’t have to take the guilt road as the destiny has smiled on us. Though I am not over the moon or jumping from joy because its a boy. I don’t know, but I think that I will not be able to give him that much love and affection as I pour on my daughter.

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