I Hate my Life
Recently I wrote a post about ideal daughter-in law. I have to admit that I have not been able to follow the steps which I recommend for being an ideal daughter-in law.
Today my father-in law wanted me to visit my uncle’s house. I got ready and then I found out that my sister-in law is also coming with us. I suggested that he take her to another relative after she has spent some time at my uncle’s place. O my god, all hell broke out. My mother-in law started screaming like a witch. She was accusing me in unprintable terms of things that I don’t know I ever did or even thought.
All I had wanted was a quite time with my uncle and his family whom I hadn’t met since I returned from abroad. I never ask to meet them, never go to their place and call them rarely. All in this in an effort to please my inlaws. So that they don’t get the idea that I like to spend more time with my maternal family and relatives than tending to my responsibilities here.
I don’t even speak much to my mother also. My father in law keeps a sharp eye on the phone bill. He takes remand of those who he feels are using the phone blatantly. I have asked my mother to phone me instead of me calling her. Or I use my cell phone when I am in the college. But I NEVER use the home phone for making calls.
Oh! There is so much to vent. I am depressed and I want to talk to somebody. Oh! Why the hell my husband had to be in UK. He is earning, I am earning and still I can’t have a say in a small matter in this house. If I say something, that will be construed as rude and not suitable for a daughter in law.
I am a 32 year old Indian woman who spends most of the time in Europe. I thought that I liked to travel, but now I am not so sure. I have been to Switzerland, France, England, Scotland and Spain. I have a little daughter whom I dot on (all mothers do, nothing new). I fear that my overbearing attitude is turning her into a timid and fearful person. I am a recluse and don’t like to interact with people. Internet is my hiding place. I am most comfortable and at ease when I am writing in my blogs. One day I want to quit my job and turn to full time blogging (oh! The ultimate dream of all introverts).
